It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. Yes, he did everything he was supposed to and yes the tests afterwards declared him sterile. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. He estimates that over 500 babies have been saved because of his efforts in utilizing the aforementioned piece. My mother killed me. I am not waiting for my appointment in about 10 days for now. Every day I feel like a monster. I found out I was pregnant today and through the tears, I scheduled the appointment. I failed my baby boy and Im still trying to figure out how to be at peace with myself and sometimes Im so scared I never will be. Mamma you knew when I was placed in your womb. We sleep in the same room that night, and the next day he drives me to work. My husband and i split up a few months ago but have been seeing eachother on and off during that time. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. I think Ill visit an abortion clinic to avail of a medical abortion service because its difficult for me to survive if I have a child. I found your post when I was idly googling if I ever was a mother too and Im sitting here and crying. Tell your friends, I dont have many friends but Ive told my closest ones. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. I cant imagine what I would have done if I wasnt able to have an abortion. to NOT have to make this decision. I am 18 and got an abortion 4 weeks ago. Maybe you can relate with "Jess," a young woman who posted her abortion story in 2019 on the Shout Your Abortion website. Praying for you! I dont want to go through an abortion again. I dont want to let you go. It was my first pregnancy, my husband is deployed, and I just happened to be going through this process physically alone (minus a couple friends there for support). And wham, I unexpectedly end up pregnant, at 41. It is killing me to know she is alive now and she wont be in a few days. It breaks my heart everyday because I didnt really want to get rid of my baby I loved her ( felt she was a girl ), had a name picked out, went to multiple scans ( still got pictures ) .Today is a year since my surgery and I grieve her everyday I regret it . I am sad you were sad. Thank you for sharing your story, and Im sure I can get a counseling session to finally put my mind at ease once I finally have it done. Does anyone else feel similar? I was 36 yrs old, with a 3.5 yrs old girl who was born premature at week 28. Seven months latter she wrote this letter to a priest. Feel so alone and feel like I will never get over this. And then I panicked. I feel like shit because I was raised that this was wrong. Marni Fults. I was not ready although Im 24 years old. Ill be 43 when the child would be born. I hope you are healing well and have found happiness in other areas of life, until you and your unborn baby see each other again. The baby daddy is crying too because we have a lot to achieve in life and this isnt what we expected. A few days later I had a surgical abortion. Its a hard feeling to know that there was energy of ours creating a life for 8 weeks. Your dad is an alcoholic. I love this man but i dont want a baby now and i feel the worst human being in this world for thinking that way. I pray God gives me another chance and send him back to me one day. I want a burrito. I am so sorry you had to go through this. I regret my decision so much and cannot put it into words. Im at a loss. It would have been too early to know the sex for sure but when I think of her I feel her and I know she was my baby girl your not alone, whatever you feel, your not alone. Know the Issues. I hate that Im stuck with making this decision. I miss my baby every minute of every day. Its nice to see other ladies have the same emotions and I know when the time is right my baby girl will come back to me (: This might be a bit forward and seem strange of me but I have been through this twice before so if you would like someone to talk to or any support you are welcome to contact me anytime x. I just had mine this afternoon. I have been sleeping with a guy unprotected for a year now last month I got pregnant and I had a miscarriage I never told him because we are not together. Then I sobbed all night and I dont even know where it was coming from and I dont know if they will ever stop. I did have a moment of sadness and what ifs but ultimately I was so sick( 7 weeks 4 days) I could not wait to get it over with! Wish I had a way to contact you personally. Im so fearful I dont know what to do. So I can understand your conflicting emotions. I told my cousin and she said that his name sounded familiar and asked around. How are you coping? I want to be able to call you "Mom," and hear you say I'm yours. Im already a mom and I love my daughter more then anything. Im 27 years old and he is 32 years old. My biggest fear is not be Abel to give my girl a sibling I will be 39 in a couple of days so . My boyfriend and I have been together for 15 years, we have a 9 year old & make about $80K (maybe more) combined income but yet Im contemplating abortion. I pulled up my pants, didnt flush, and walked back into the classroom where twelve toddlers slept. American liberals are debating the merits of "after birth abortion." On 29 July 2015, the unreliable web site Conservative Post published an article titled "Liberals Debate . To be honest, the abortion probably saved my life. Constant regret and pain . I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. I dont want to lose you. Cry Of An Unborn Child by Gabrielle Kruger - Family Friend Poems. No baby should be murdered by its mother. I saw a tarot reader 2 years ago and they brought him up and told me he forgave me and understood but I will never forgive myself. Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. I want more than anything to be a mom. Thank you. I hope I only delayed meeting my next little one instead of completely losing out on one unique beautiful baby, Thank you for sharing. She is with you in your dreams at least. My eyes fixate on her belly, and I sob. Im not mad at you anymore. Don't Forget That I Was Here By He had a vasectomy and yet I ended up pregnant again. Hi Sarah, Ive just had a baby (two weeks ago) at 40, I do feel age is but a number. I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. I got an abortion 6 days ago. The article reappeared in 1980, and was turned into a song in 2005. . Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. And then we came back home. Your baby. Nine nights later, the night before the appointment, I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. Best of luck! I know God and His angels will help. Hi. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. . I told my baby it may have to be just me and him. I have seen many of my patients go through something similar and it is never easy. Hi, my story is very quite similar to yours. This resonates with me. That exact day I started bleeding I went to the ER and they said I might miscarry again I told him and he is convinced I am going to lose the baby. a desire to meet its mother; Reactions to this song have been divided. We talk about how we could make it work, but it just doesnt make sense. Everyone at work keeps getting pregnant and every time I hurt. I hope that helps you make the right decision for you. Jessa Duggar Seewald, best known for her role on the TLC reality show "19 Kids and Counting," recently shared in a YouTube video that she miscarried what would have been her fifth child. Why cant we have our dreams and a baby? I decide abortion at week 6. I didn't know you, but I loved you. I am totally against abortion. Surfing helps, but I know the best thing for healing is time. I never felt more disconnected to anyone in my life. The baby has been name Baby Amanda Marie, for the name Amanda means "she who ought to be loved." When you make this list of pros and cons, I think it will help you understand the reality. I wish I could talk to someone who gets it so much :,( also cate I hope your ok and you and your husband sorted things out. Physically or health wise and its not suppose to be this way. Im always hunted by guilt almost everyday, same as you Im also working in Nursery school, so I always see kids that reminds of my poor one. I am with someone now and he is lovely. Despite the fact that I used contraception, I still got pregnant last week. I am thinking of you xx. I am sure I am going to be the She comes to me in my dreams at least once a week. Thank you for your sorry. She made the choice within a day, and now she is so upset and emotional and traumatised. I told myself there was no way i could be pregnant. In a letter shared in advance with the Guardian and sent on . Thank you for sharing. One day, maybe. Xxx, We are all such incredible and compassionate women. I feel like a failure for being the one who could not be seen as a wonderful choice to raise a baby with. Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." I was afraid, honey. We left the hospital with him saying we can try again. There are so many things I am looking forward to, and I can't wait to be held in your arms and taught by the very best mama I can think of! God bless you and your family. I am finish a social work degree and my fiance just finished his Masters and has started working. She told me she was flattered but nothing could stop her from the abortion. I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. I wish I would have told him to have a nice life. The connection is like no other. I dont want to live in regret of having an abortion. Realizing it is her choice and respecting her decision has been rough but weve grown these past few weeks. All Ive ever wanted is to me a mom. Take care. Im so sorry. I am pregnant now and I know many other girls who have had an abortion that have had children. Must be awful. So please mommy, don't let me down. 'Dear Mommy' So begins the correspondence from an unborn baby to her mother. I, well, thankfully few days ago I conceived in your tummy. I cry all the time and I dont think Ill ever stop. A woman claiming to be pregnant has written an open letter to the "Little Thing" she'll never meet. Our family was complete. Dont panic, I thought. Ive often wished we met sooner so we could of had a child together. I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. WASHINGTON The Biden administration on Monday told hospitals that they "must" provide abortion services if the life of the mother is at risk, saying federal law on emergency treatment. I felt very depressed after I let you go - many days were hard to face, some I didn't. I told myself it was hormones. Im so torn and feel so alone. Me and my boyfriend were going steady and were a couple but we were very young, both of us college freshmen. Hi Kai I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. I cry also. I dont know where to go or what to research for. I have been scouring the internet for stories because keep either seeing people who wanted to do it and doesnt regret it, or people who regret it all together. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice We don't need to live in a big fancy house, The Baby Must Be. To this day I cry in memory of the child that could have been. Thank you for this I hope one day Ill find a way to be okay, I really feel stupid and sad Im pregnant and everyone doesnt support my relation ship.i now want to abort and sadly get over my man. This hurts me down to my soul. I know Im going to love him when he is here but in the time being I am just purely struggling. We were in this sad nightmare together, weren't we? I cant get the ultrasound picture or the thought of the potential of my baby out of my head. Took the first pill today to block the hormones. i know my baby will be returned to me, someday. I thought the tears would stop but they dont. I have never commented on a public post but I feel I need to do. Weve trien for 8 yeats now and decided that if I turned 30 which is Dec of this year and I am not pregnant, we will give up. Children need attention so please think about if youre equipped to care for them on your own as a single parent. Its almost the same situation. And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. Couldnt take my meds or prenatals because the baby threw up everything. Im Ill never be sure if I made the right decision, but Im financially incompetent right now. I feel like the world makes us feel weak, like we cant handle both our dreams and a child that will love us and need us more than we could understand. How first and my first. Do I honor my heart and have another sweet lamb, potentially subjecting this human to another absentee parent who secretly resents their existence- OR- do I get the abortion. All of this is to saymom, you have a child, it's me. Don't listen to the voices saying it'll be easier when I'm gone. Thank you for this. Would you call that dad-approved? I also didnt want to be a single mum of someone who did not want the child. You definitely should keep it! Pro . I instantly regretted it I changed my mind the day of my surgery but the nurse said I may have a miscarriage because I took the pill the day before . My husband has made this time incredibly difficult for me. more by Gabrielle Kruger. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? We dont regret it. I just had an abortion a couple days ago and I was 7 weeks. Because I was born, because I can talk and breathe air and because you can visibly see me in front of your face, I had the "right" to take my first baby's life away. I commend you for making that choice. My partner abandoned me and I had no money. , I think to myself. I was never able to have a child, she was my first and only chance. Im 11 weeks pregnant and Ive been dating a man for six months, I recently found out he is married but trying to get a divorce now, and hes been sleeping with her even when he knew I was pregnant. Sometimes I wish I still had my baby. If anyone has any advice, please send it my way. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. I told my mom who was not shocked and she said we should schedule it for the next day. Everyday I think about my baby, Im still google searching what the baby would look like at this gestation age, what the baby would be doing. I sit there like that until I hear the front door open and your dad walks in. I felt a sense of love and attachment to the baby I knew I had to let go. I hope everything will be okay. Thats when I called him and told him he needed to come home, that I wasnt mad at him anymore for all the horrible things he had recently done, and that we needed to talk. I too had an abortion a couple of days ago 1/10/20. Im a mother to 5 boys.. 2 from my previous marriage that I share 50/50 custody of and 3 littles that are with me 24/7. I PRAY my baby forgives me for being weak And she comes back to me. I still wonder if o made the right decision. God has forgiven you and you should try and forgive yourself. I was so excited when I found out because I didnt even know if could have kids. Hi Melanie, just dont do it! I never talked to people about it after. Congratulations! Anything further than 6 weeks and I could not have possibly stood firm on my decision. but something I think people needed to read. Let me tell you some things about me. I like the word dad because Father is in Heaven. Guess what? I cried every day leading up to me making a decision, and I set the appointment for the very next day after I decided so that I would not have much time to change my mind. And I think I would have either way I would have decided so why am I finding it so hard to accept and move on. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. The abortion will be via the pill (which I think is an awfully ironic name for it). Id give anything to see my baby smile. Two years later in our relationship, he did end up confessing to me that the abortion caused him to resent me. It took me months to get back to normal, probably because of the hormones, and I got severely depressed and anxious. It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. and I have no clue what to do. There are no words. Thank you for sharing your story. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. Fathers should never be bored of their children. June 1, 2021 2:30 PM EDT. I personally cant do abortion nor adoption. I know you made the right decision for you! I dont know how to help her other than being there. The one person I need in my corner is not the there and I dont know if I can do this all over again at my age. I went through every logistic financial, physical, mental to see if I could go through with it. You may wonder why I say she.. It takes courage to share your story, especially with so much honesty. i know its just rational thinking, but it still hurts a lot. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems Its a hard decision, Hi there Im in the same situation, dont know what to do Im so sick ? All my life my dream was to have kids. I just remember lying on the table crying my eyes out begging for forgiveness till They put me to sleep . I have an appointment at planned Parenthood in 6 days and a doctors appointment tomorrow. I wish I wouldve bought her plan b or made sure she was taking her birth control but those options are completely out of reach now. im so lost on how to proceed. Xx, I found out I was pregnant on this day a year ago and like you I was scared. Published Jul 29, 2015. She is 23, theyve been together 6 months and shes not ready for such a huge commitment. I had not long been in a new job that I had wanted and worked hard for. I did regret it but I cant imagine hows my life would had been if I didnt do it. I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . As I was peeing, I thought, Well, its definitely going to be negative since this isnt my first pee of the day. I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. When I told him I was pregnant the first thing he said is lets get a chicken sandwhich. I am now 48 and very much regret it and really dont know how to go on, but somehow we must. You are making the best decision for yourself at this point in time , I feel like I can relate and that give me a lil strength. The dad and I had talked about having another child after 3.5 yrs. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. Im broken over this. Now it is 3 months later and I always find myself looking at bassinets and baby items. My husband does not want another child. Emotionally I suffered very badly for the first 2 weeks after the abortion (even to the point of being suicidal at times which is massively out of character for me) I was warned that pregnacy hormones around this time are at their strongest and to expect extreme moods. Eventually with some deep talks from my family I booked an appointment and decided it was best not to have the baby I had to have a surgical abortion at 16 weeks . I have images that its the same as trying to kill one of my current children. I dont blame you for choosing to terminate your pregnancy. Ever. I just wanted to let you know that the decision I made was very painful and still hurts at times but that it does get easier especially if you know you made it for the right reasons. And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. In the last twenty minutes of my lunch break, I walked to Walgreens and bought the test thinking the employees must assume Im really irresponsible (I guess I was?). I dont feel like he was there for me as he should. Am i allowed to feel i did it for the baby? This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. God chose YOU to be my mommy, No baby should be murdered by its mother. Hello Mommy, this is me, your baby- I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. I want you to know, I understand. Sometimes I think about taking my life and then I think about my daughter . I hope she can forgive me. Me too, yesterday I found out I was 8 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend also doesnt want to keep it. And chips. A judge can excuse you from this requirement. I cant make up my mind. It is a very hard decision to make thinking about having our fist baby but I have no choice. I was wondering how you are feeling. The doctor walks in and is quite pregnant. Children cannot eat love and so please think about your financial situation. My grief has been unbearable the past 5 days since I had the abortion. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. I believe that ultimately, our babies are still with us in a spirit. Both in you, as a memory, and in heaven as a person, for eternity. You can do more than you think you can. I havent seen her since after I delivered her, I immediately went whom and my sister arranged everything after she found out what happened , because I needed help so I called her.. Floating in your tummy, feeling snug and warm. It resonates and although Im still very sad, makes me feel more peaceful. Truth is, I have no job, I am back in school with one child taken care of by my parents, I cannot bring another right now and of I did this new opportunity would go away. My significant other is leaving the decision to me and will support either way it goes but I just dont know what to do. I was 5 weeks pregnant. I am so heartbroken. And so, we eat our burritos, filling ourselves with reality and carne asada. I still do. But I begged her not to go, I pleaded at times crying on the phone. There are different ways to go about this, like: He promised me we would be ready later and I believed him. Once my ears have developed properly,